Day 6: Song
All Your Life by The Band Perry
“Lately I’ve been writing desperate love songs. I mostly sing them to the wall.”
This is exactly how I feel right now. I have all this love and romanticism in me and I have no one to share it with. Of course, I have my family and friends, and I’m so thankful for them, but I’m still looking for that one special person with whom I can be romantic.
“You could be the center of my obsession, if you’d notice me at all.”
I just want one guy to notice me.
It’s not that I define myself on whether others notice me or not, or what they think of me, but it’d be nice to be noticed, and in a good way.
Is that to much to ask?
Yet again, it has been way too long since I’ve posted.
Not too much has changed in my life since my last post. I still work at my same job. I’m still in a rut concerning my future. I’m still single and waiting for my prince charming.
Now, this is probably just wishful thinking, but I often get a strong sense of deja vu, and at times when I am absolutely certain that I was never in the situation before. Recently, however, I’ve been getting this sense of a foreshadowing of future memories.
For instance, while watching The Bachelor this past Monday, I had a moment of remembering what it feels like to hold hands with a new love interest. Sadly, this is an experience I’ve never had. Actually, as depressing as it is to admit, I’ve never been in a relationship. I’ve never been on a date. I’ve never even been kissed. And I’m 21 years old!
Call me a freak, but it didn’t feel like I was imagining what it might feel like. It was like I was reliving the moment and the feeling. I have no way to explain how that could be anywhere near possible. And I’m not sure it is.
And I want this to mean that it’s coming for me. That’s it’s almost my turn to have those feelings. That sounds crazy, though.
I’ll probably just chalk it up to my imagination and my wishful romanticism.
I’ll just continue to hope for my epic love story.
And I’ll wait.
Thompson Square is pure genius. They are this lovely couple whose songs include “Let’s Fight”, “Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not”, and “Glass”. Those are just a few of my favorites. Glass inspired the name of my blog and the tag line. The original lyrics are ‘we may shine, we may shatter, …. , ’cause we are glass.’
However, at the moment, I am not a we. So, I changed it up a little bit. I hope they don’t mind.
“I’ll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks, and in the darkness of this moment, you see the good and bad.”
I want the kind of love where I can trust him enough to open myself completely. To let him look inside me, in every part of me.
“We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake, we might burn like gasoline and fire, but it’s a chance we’ll have to take.”
I don’t take many chances, so I want a love that’s worth it. I want someone to make me want to risk the pain of heartache, so that I can feel, even if it’s just for a moment.
I want epic love.